It Hurts... (With Story)

Art by me
This is kinda a little vent..
Though yeah, I kinda just went on to talk about stuff
Also I don't smoke just my Sona does because I figure she's the badder one of my two Sonas. Anyways down below is a story I wrote of kinda how I feel... To be honest if it feels like I'm calling you out because of what was said. It isn't, I've felt Useless every single day because I know I'm not making a difference in any ones life right now. Because I can't say the right thing. I want to be there for people, but im to much of an idiot. Anyways if you decide to read it that's fine. I'm just not in my right mind atm and I can't blame it on being depressed or anything. It's just me probably throwing a fit because I feel like crap. Anyways. Later~

///////////////Warning Story Bellow//////////////////
Ray walked alone, her heart ached as she walked.
She felt as if she could do nothing... NOTHING for anyone. Her happier counter part... Ah what was her name? That German dog breed. That's all Ray wanted to call her...

Her counter part got all the credit for what she wanted to do! She wanted to make others feel better, but she was useless as usual. She heard things whisper in her ears. Harmful words, and just name calling. She would mostly smoke to keep her mind off the harsh words and pain.

Her counter part would tell her "That's not right Ray~ you know better." What would she know, she was everyone's favorite anyways. "It would hurt our friends knowing what you do!" She shrugged what they didn't know wouldn't hurt them. Beside this was how she let things go now adays. She didn't talk to anyone really, her friends were now all behind a computer screen at this point... She tried to make others feel better, but she was younger of all of them.

Even in school, she would have a few friends here and there, but she loved to goof off a bit and doodle anime character, but her counter part was so social and everyone loved her. Ray went to drama and put on a mask and acted more like her counter part when she went to school. She made a few friends and when she comes home she feels so tired and drained... She wants to talk to her friend... Her best friend that's been there since forever, but she's just to tired she falls... Asleep.

One day though....

She tossed her phone to the side and leaned back. She didn't cry at the fact that she felt alone. She didn't really care... Her heart had already been hurt or left to many times to care. She just smoked the pain untill clouds filled the room. The brightly colored German Shepherd sat by her. "So what are you going to do when they find out and don't want to be your friend anymore Ray???"

Ray shrugged and laughed as she saw the German Shepherd cry because she was afraid, she saw the old her in the Shepherd before her. "Listen here kid, if they leave you. They leave you it's life." She took another drag and inhaled the smoke letting it go through her nose. "If they stay, they stay be thankful and proud for that."

"Other wise Rainbow Shepherd, it's just us."